A Yeyo’s Letter: Sometimes I Cry

Dear Natty-Bear,

Welcome to the world, sweetheart! This is my first letter to you since you arrived and changed everything about my life just over three weeks ago. I can’t believe it has been that long already. Everyday you change more and more. Your eyes are big, beautiful and wide – I love staring into them as you open them more each day. I love you so much. So. Very. Much. Even though I’m super tired some days, every morning I can’t wait to see your face and hold you and kiss you.

Yesterday was a tough one for both of us, wasn’t it? You cried a lot and so did I. It’s hard for me to watch your little body writhe and squirm in pain or discomfort and to hear you cry/scream at the top of your lungs. It’s hard for me to feel so helpless – to not know what’s wrong…and to not be able to make it all better. The last three weeks have been full of ups and downs as your dad and I have worked to get to know you and you, us. There have been great days, hard days, and in-between days…but we’re here taking it all one step at a time. What I’ve realized so far is that being a mommy is not an easy job and not without its challenges. I want so badly to be everything you need me to be and more. I promise to always do my best and to try hard for you. That includes getting up, saying my prayers, taking a shower (believe me, it matters!) and simply working hard to meet your needs. But with that effort, I’ve also realized that sometimes I’ll cry in the process when I’m feeling overwhelmed. And that’s okay. Your dad and I both just want to give you the world and make you happy. I’m prayerful that you can feel that when we hold you – even if we don’t know right away what to do to help.

Just so you know, I’m doing much better today than I was yesterday. I called your doctor this morning and it turns out that you just might have a bad case of gas, which is why your tummy may hurt a little and why you cried so much. We’re going to give you some stuff called gripe water, which hopefully will make you feel a little better. I apologize in advance if it tastes nasty!

Well baby girl, this was all that was on my heart right at this moment. You are drifting off to sleep after having just eaten, and I pray sweet dreams for you as you rest.

Love, Hugs, and Kisses,

Your Yeyo


Posted on December 29, 2010, in A Yeyo's Letter. Bookmark the permalink. 9 Comments.

  1. Yes, that gas can be something awful for babies. You might also want to try switching her bottles to a style that has vents or use the Playtex bottles with the disposable drop-ins. They help to eliminate those air bubbles in the milk that gas build up. If you’re breastfeeding then maybe burping her a little longer will help.

    If that doesn’t work, I’d look into changing the formula if you’re using any. A lot of babies have sensitive stomachs at first and have to start out on formulas that are more gentle and then progress to the regular stuff. Good luck and hang in there. Motherhood is overwhelming but well worth the effort and all the pains!! It will get better and easier over time.

  2. Thank you so much for sharing your mommy thoughts/feelings with us as you share them with Natalie. Thank you for giving us a glimpse into your thoughts and feelings as a new mom. I just love you t pieces!

  3. You know I watch everyday how you and Moh are taking on as parents with so much love and it shows with how well Natalie is doing. I know that you two will be just fine because of your commitment to each is so strong and that’s what it takes to ensure that only the best care is given and given with much love! Natalie is so blessed to have been chosen to be with you two…my heart just warms and smiles when i see how well you and Moh care for this precious little girl…smile…yfm

  4. I don’t know how I missed this but I just teared up a little. I luhhhhhh-uve this post Am. I concur with everyone else in saying that baby Nat is so blessed to have you both as parents. ❤

  5. Princess, this has to be the most beautiful thing that I read today outside of my bible. Why was I tearing up when I read this? I guess I am soo happy for the 3 of you (mommy, daddy, & baby). Thanks for your blogs so that I don’t have to say to myself “I wonder how the Wright family is”!! I love your blog & can’t wait to meet Nat!!

    • Wow, Tracy…seriously? The Bible? I don’t know what to say! I think that’s the best compliment I’ve ever received…I might have to use it one day as a testimonial! LOL As always, thank you for reading and supporting this blog (and our family). We love you bunches!

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